I put in my notice at UPS this morning. I was not planning to put in my notice, but I had a realization during the course of the shift and knew I had to do something or else MY SPIRIT WOULD BE COMPLETELY ERODED. While processing packages and typing in codes and addresses in the data capture section, I realized that part of my attention was focused on the small can of Red Bull perched precariously next to the monitor. The can was nearly full and I did not want it to fall and spill. But it was more than just that.
I needed those small sips of the cold, carbonated, caffeineted beverage. My anticipation of each small sip was equivalent to my will to live, the will to continue on in the face of agonizing tedium and Angry Lady (who angrily shoves packages in my direction and I can feel her anger with each shove, making my insides clench in anxiety and frustration). If the beverage were to spill, I would not only be angry and utterly despair, I would probably have a breakdown. I would not be able to continue (in reality, I probably would) but it didn’t feel that way. It felt like I would cry and cry over spilt Red Bull.
I reasoned with myself. I looked at my own irrational fears of quitting or giving up, of disappointing the employers. I looked at my puritanical Chatterton side that said “work hard, don’t complain, and whatever you do, DO NOT WASTE MONEY on COBRA- wait til you have a new job”. Then I thought about what family members have been consistently pointing out to me- is money worth what this is doing to my state of mind?
I have been doing this for over a year. Enough.
UPS TOP TEN
10) Full health insurance and dental for both yourself and your spouse, paid 100% by UPS for part-time work. The benefits are outstanding- all employers should do this.
9) you will see more sunrises in a year than most people do in their lifetime.
Monthly breakfasts of egg, ham and cheese sandwiches or Dunkin Donuts spread that gives you a little content feeling while you chew, like a serf laboring under a benign overlord.
7) you will be able burn the number pad on the keyboard like YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE.
6) you will know every zip code of every town and every address of every large business in the tri-county area. That knowledge MUST be good for something.
5) you will expand your ability to tolerate mind-numbing tedium to four hours.
4a) Knowledge that the gritty “*&@ me, I’m getting up at 4 am” feeling does not go away, no matter how early you go to bed the night before.
4b) Thereby rendering a fervent wish to be able to inject coffee directly, between your toes.
3) Alliterative names like “Mildred Meeks” and “Curtis Coontware” spotted on the packages.
2) Ideal candidacy for carpal tunnel syndrome.
And the top reason you should work at UPS-
1) Blank, confused expressions when you joke that working in D CAP (nickname for data capture) is like being in a sorority. You know? Like, I’m in D CAPPA CAPPA CAPPA, y’all!
As I drove towards home, at an intersection in the urbanized section of the inner circle of retail hell in Willistion, I saw three- THREE- young, bone thin foxes trotting along on the sidewalk. Three red foxes! A sign if I ever saw one, although I have no idea what it means.
I don’t like being without a job and absolutely fume at the thought of what we’ll have to pay for COBRA, but hopefully I won’t be unemployed for too long.
Aug 4th 2005Everyday life